Wow - how spectacular the crash was! I never fail to impress meself when these kinda things happen - altho one would have thought that by now, i should be used to them.
Well, i'm not. And i'm trying not to get used to them. In fact, i was going to do something about it. And last nite, i made the decision - prolly the biggest decision i've made in these years - and set my sights to carry it out.
Guess what? I fell asleep.
But... but.... i was so so tired!!! I really am... :-(
Just when i thought that this time, things will be different.
*Released as a single when i was in London. Yes, brings back memories of those times.
Saturday, 21 March 2009
Thursday, 12 March 2009
Pocketful of sunshine* - Natasha Bedingfield
Text message dated 27 August 2006:-
Ok five minutes to square three
That was in reference to one of the few 'dates' i had with HG back in the summer of 2006. Reading that text message again brought a smile to me face.
In fact, as i scrolled down the list of messages in my Inbox, there were many more reasons for smiling!
Flashback to Monday - i ended up not having my mobile phone for more than 24 hours. So i reverted back to me old Sony Ericsson mobile. It was a pleasant surprise and a wonderful walk down memory lane as i re-read all the old messages contained in that phone. Yes, most of it were regarding my stay - and my subsequent revisit - in the UK.
So there were a few from HG - after losing touch with her for so long, it felt strange to read her old messages to me. A nice 'strange' way. Her voice and a mental image of her saying those words filled my mind.
There were an exchange of some text messages with KeKe - yes, we were texting about HG. :-)
There were a few others from me flatmates - Di wishing me a Happy Mid-Autumn Festival (something which i never and will prolly never receive from anyone!), Chiaki thanking me in Bahasa Malaysia ("tremakase!!!"), and Alberto wishing me a happy birthday and a merry Christmas.
There were texts from mates here in M'sia, to me when i was in Colchester. Stephan and Kristin texted me to tell me how they enjoyed the long phone conversation i had with them, Shelbs sharing her joy with me on the best X'mas gift i've ever received, Charity telling me how she was caught in the middle of a shopping crowd in London on Boxing Day, me travel mates sending their farewell texts after our trip around France... so many!!!
There was an exchange of texts between me and Michael as i waited for the bus at Stansted on my first return to UK after my studies.
Another from me mate in London telling me that she is eating my farewell gift to her - Krispy Kreme doughnuts. She has the distinction of being with me when i had my first ever Krispy Kreme doughnut!
Very simple texts, some of them - but the memories attached to them are so meaningful and wonderful!!!
If i ever need a lift, or put a smile on me face, i know now that i just need to look at these little gems of messages again. As i walked around with me phone in me pocket, it really felt like i have a pocket full of sunshine!
*Taken from her 2nd North American album, this song was however not released as a single in the UK.
Ok five minutes to square three
That was in reference to one of the few 'dates' i had with HG back in the summer of 2006. Reading that text message again brought a smile to me face.
In fact, as i scrolled down the list of messages in my Inbox, there were many more reasons for smiling!
Flashback to Monday - i ended up not having my mobile phone for more than 24 hours. So i reverted back to me old Sony Ericsson mobile. It was a pleasant surprise and a wonderful walk down memory lane as i re-read all the old messages contained in that phone. Yes, most of it were regarding my stay - and my subsequent revisit - in the UK.
So there were a few from HG - after losing touch with her for so long, it felt strange to read her old messages to me. A nice 'strange' way. Her voice and a mental image of her saying those words filled my mind.
There were an exchange of some text messages with KeKe - yes, we were texting about HG. :-)
There were a few others from me flatmates - Di wishing me a Happy Mid-Autumn Festival (something which i never and will prolly never receive from anyone!), Chiaki thanking me in Bahasa Malaysia ("tremakase!!!"), and Alberto wishing me a happy birthday and a merry Christmas.
There were texts from mates here in M'sia, to me when i was in Colchester. Stephan and Kristin texted me to tell me how they enjoyed the long phone conversation i had with them, Shelbs sharing her joy with me on the best X'mas gift i've ever received, Charity telling me how she was caught in the middle of a shopping crowd in London on Boxing Day, me travel mates sending their farewell texts after our trip around France... so many!!!
There was an exchange of texts between me and Michael as i waited for the bus at Stansted on my first return to UK after my studies.
Another from me mate in London telling me that she is eating my farewell gift to her - Krispy Kreme doughnuts. She has the distinction of being with me when i had my first ever Krispy Kreme doughnut!
Very simple texts, some of them - but the memories attached to them are so meaningful and wonderful!!!
If i ever need a lift, or put a smile on me face, i know now that i just need to look at these little gems of messages again. As i walked around with me phone in me pocket, it really felt like i have a pocket full of sunshine!
*Taken from her 2nd North American album, this song was however not released as a single in the UK.
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
I am woman* - Helen Reddy
I jumped outta bed when the alarm went off at 10 minutes after 5 in the morning - and promptly went back to sleep after turning it off. 30 mins later, i forced meself to sit up. Every inch of me body screamed at me to just forget about it and drop back onto me pillow and head towards slumberland again.
But somehow, with superhuman effort steely determination, i was up, changed and in me car - before i could even talk meself out of it.
Where was i heading to? What did i do?
That, my frens, will remain a secret for now. But suffice to say that i 'became' a pretty girl for 30 minutes. All that effort for just half an hour!
Yeah, go ahead and have field day and knock yourself out making all the assumptions and insinuations. It was worth it! ;-)
*This was the first song by an Aussie to hit #1 on the Billboard chart. It was also the first Australian-penned song to win a Grammy Award.
But somehow, with superhuman effort steely determination, i was up, changed and in me car - before i could even talk meself out of it.
Where was i heading to? What did i do?
That, my frens, will remain a secret for now. But suffice to say that i 'became' a pretty girl for 30 minutes. All that effort for just half an hour!
Yeah, go ahead and have field day and knock yourself out making all the assumptions and insinuations. It was worth it! ;-)
*This was the first song by an Aussie to hit #1 on the Billboard chart. It was also the first Australian-penned song to win a Grammy Award.
Saturday, 7 March 2009
Little Sister* - Jewel
She looked so beautiful tonight!
And the added bonus of hearing her sing again - I almost cried! I realised how much i missed her.
I just regret not getting a chance to tell her all this...
Congrats Mr & Mrs Lee.
*Taken from her debut album
And the added bonus of hearing her sing again - I almost cried! I realised how much i missed her.
I just regret not getting a chance to tell her all this...
Congrats Mr & Mrs Lee.
*Taken from her debut album
Friday, 6 March 2009
You've got a friend* - Carole King
I was watching Friends when i came across the scene that you can watch in the clip hereinbelow.
As i begin to realise who my real friends are, i begin to miss my true friends even so much more. I know that no matter what, i've got a friend in them.
This was a scene that Michael and i re-enacted before i left.
I miss you, Michael! and i dun care how gay it sounds! Lol!
Chilling at Paris
Seeing ourselves
Going thru some weird hairdos (and facial hair too)
Sometimes we feel like killing each other...
Other times, we drive each other to wanna kill ourselves!!!
But yeah, we'll always kiss and make up. Albeit reluctantly at times!
*Written by her and covered extensively, this song is listed in the The Rock and Roll Hall of Fame's 500 Songs that Shaped Rock and Roll.
As i begin to realise who my real friends are, i begin to miss my true friends even so much more. I know that no matter what, i've got a friend in them.
This was a scene that Michael and i re-enacted before i left.
I miss you, Michael! and i dun care how gay it sounds! Lol!
Chilling at Paris
Seeing ourselves
Going thru some weird hairdos (and facial hair too)
Sometimes we feel like killing each other...
Other times, we drive each other to wanna kill ourselves!!!
But yeah, we'll always kiss and make up. Albeit reluctantly at times!
*Written by her and covered extensively, this song is listed in the The Rock and Roll Hall of Fame's 500 Songs that Shaped Rock and Roll.
Thursday, 5 March 2009
1-2-3* - Gloria Estefan & Miami Sound Machine
So it's back to the basics. It's starting again at the very beginning. When you learn to read, you start with A, B, C. When you learn to sing, you start with Do, Re, Mi. But somehow, each time i start to learn how to speak mandarin, i start with 1, 2, 3. Or to be more precise, yi, er, san.
Yes, this is another attempt of mine to learn the language of me ancestors. I've lost count how many attempts i have made - either on me own or by lessons. There was the few times when i tried to learn using cassettes and even CDs. No discipline. Then i started having lessons. One was in church. The teacher stopped after a few classes. Were we that bad?
The most recent attempt was taking lessons from a Chinese girl studying in London. But it should not be a surprise to many of you that taking mandarin lessons inevitably brings back memories of being in the UK.
Hui Guo was her name. I found her on the net. After a few exchanges of e-mails, i decided to give her a try. It was quite a nice experience. Being a student at SOAS, UOL, she used the classrooms there to conduct her classes. so i had the opportunity to enter the campus of SOAS and used the classrooms there. It wasn't anything great, tho. Pretty drab and ordinary. But still, it was SOAS!
So memories of those dark, cold wintry nites when i would exit the tube at Russel Square and meet her at SOAS would accompany the memories of studying mandarin.
Hui was really nice too. And patient! In additioinal to the lessons, i enjoyed just chatting with her after the lessons. Being all alone in London, it was nice to have someone to chat with and meet up on a regular basis.
Unfortunately, our frenship din last long. It was cut short due to the theft of the money in me bank account. Having no money, i could not carry on with the classes. Being desperate, i returned to Colchester and got a job there instead. Shortly after that, i was called to return home due to the health of me dad.
I dun know wat happened to her. Altho i did try to contact her when i went back for a visit during the summer of 2007, we could never find a suitable time to meet up. When i was in London, she was away. We did chat a while on the phone...
Another thing which brought back memories of me stay in the UK is my fellow student now. There are only 2 of us. Altho she has never been to the UK, the interesting thing is that i got to know her when i was sudying at Essex!!! Thanks to Jon, i started reading her blog and then from there, we got to know each other. We were 'e-frens', i guess! It was during the summer of 2006 and it was a most wonderful time back then. World Cup, Wimbledon, Food-on-3... and her!
Anyways, i really hope that this time round, i will actually benefit from the lessons. I'm not too ambitious - all i want is to be able to have simple everyday conversations in mandarin. And if i were to backpack around China, i would be able to survive - and understand if a local is saying bad things about me! :-)
Ultimately, this may have an important bearing on where i may spend the rest of me life... and what i may be doing during that period of time.
Still, it was fun and i'm looking forward to more lessons. I oso need to practice! Can't wait for the day when i'm able to really post a post in mandarin - not copy and paste some chinese words online and pass it off as a post here!
*One of their hits in the late 80s.
Yes, this is another attempt of mine to learn the language of me ancestors. I've lost count how many attempts i have made - either on me own or by lessons. There was the few times when i tried to learn using cassettes and even CDs. No discipline. Then i started having lessons. One was in church. The teacher stopped after a few classes. Were we that bad?
The most recent attempt was taking lessons from a Chinese girl studying in London. But it should not be a surprise to many of you that taking mandarin lessons inevitably brings back memories of being in the UK.
Hui Guo was her name. I found her on the net. After a few exchanges of e-mails, i decided to give her a try. It was quite a nice experience. Being a student at SOAS, UOL, she used the classrooms there to conduct her classes. so i had the opportunity to enter the campus of SOAS and used the classrooms there. It wasn't anything great, tho. Pretty drab and ordinary. But still, it was SOAS!
So memories of those dark, cold wintry nites when i would exit the tube at Russel Square and meet her at SOAS would accompany the memories of studying mandarin.
Hui was really nice too. And patient! In additioinal to the lessons, i enjoyed just chatting with her after the lessons. Being all alone in London, it was nice to have someone to chat with and meet up on a regular basis.
Unfortunately, our frenship din last long. It was cut short due to the theft of the money in me bank account. Having no money, i could not carry on with the classes. Being desperate, i returned to Colchester and got a job there instead. Shortly after that, i was called to return home due to the health of me dad.
I dun know wat happened to her. Altho i did try to contact her when i went back for a visit during the summer of 2007, we could never find a suitable time to meet up. When i was in London, she was away. We did chat a while on the phone...
Another thing which brought back memories of me stay in the UK is my fellow student now. There are only 2 of us. Altho she has never been to the UK, the interesting thing is that i got to know her when i was sudying at Essex!!! Thanks to Jon, i started reading her blog and then from there, we got to know each other. We were 'e-frens', i guess! It was during the summer of 2006 and it was a most wonderful time back then. World Cup, Wimbledon, Food-on-3... and her!
Anyways, i really hope that this time round, i will actually benefit from the lessons. I'm not too ambitious - all i want is to be able to have simple everyday conversations in mandarin. And if i were to backpack around China, i would be able to survive - and understand if a local is saying bad things about me! :-)
Ultimately, this may have an important bearing on where i may spend the rest of me life... and what i may be doing during that period of time.
Still, it was fun and i'm looking forward to more lessons. I oso need to practice! Can't wait for the day when i'm able to really post a post in mandarin - not copy and paste some chinese words online and pass it off as a post here!
*One of their hits in the late 80s.
Tuesday, 3 March 2009
She will be loved* - Maroon 5
I remember walking around Mid-Valley with her. It was late and the shops were mostly closed. We stood outside this card shop and looked in, reading the cards and laughing at some of the funny ones.
I used to go back to that same card shop many times after she left, just trying to recapture that moment, imagining seeing her image reflected in the store window, standing next to me. I stopped doing that only after the shop closed down.
Suntec City - right at the top floor. We randomly chose this cafe and sat there for hours, chatting. So long that till today, I still remember the cafe tables very well! It was glass top and underneath the glass were coffee beans! The cafe is no longer there - or perhaps they have changed the tables...
Driving back from a wonderful outing to Genting Highlands, everyone else was sleeping but she kept awake to keep me company as i took the wheels.
Drama practice, rum and raisin ice cream, Burger King, P Tinto's Miracle, long chats, loads of laughter...
Suddenly all these memories came back to me - almost like the rain last Sunday, it poured relentlessly, sweeping me away in a wave of its strong currents of emotions. What triggered it? A simple text message from her early this morning. It ended with a simple "See u soon".
Yeah, i'll be seeing her soon. This weekend, to be exact. And i suddenly felt so excited for her! My dear little 'sister' is getting married this weekend! All grown up, a woman, about to embark on a new journey of her interesting life. I'm happy to have played a supporting role, albeit i would have wished for a more recurring role! Still, i'm glad i have made several guest appearances in these past few seasons.
She's gonna look so gorgeous this weekend, that i'm sure! And yes, she will be loved!
*This songs always have reminded me of her. I think she was the one who first told me about this song.
I used to go back to that same card shop many times after she left, just trying to recapture that moment, imagining seeing her image reflected in the store window, standing next to me. I stopped doing that only after the shop closed down.
Suntec City - right at the top floor. We randomly chose this cafe and sat there for hours, chatting. So long that till today, I still remember the cafe tables very well! It was glass top and underneath the glass were coffee beans! The cafe is no longer there - or perhaps they have changed the tables...
Driving back from a wonderful outing to Genting Highlands, everyone else was sleeping but she kept awake to keep me company as i took the wheels.
Drama practice, rum and raisin ice cream, Burger King, P Tinto's Miracle, long chats, loads of laughter...
Suddenly all these memories came back to me - almost like the rain last Sunday, it poured relentlessly, sweeping me away in a wave of its strong currents of emotions. What triggered it? A simple text message from her early this morning. It ended with a simple "See u soon".
Yeah, i'll be seeing her soon. This weekend, to be exact. And i suddenly felt so excited for her! My dear little 'sister' is getting married this weekend! All grown up, a woman, about to embark on a new journey of her interesting life. I'm happy to have played a supporting role, albeit i would have wished for a more recurring role! Still, i'm glad i have made several guest appearances in these past few seasons.
She's gonna look so gorgeous this weekend, that i'm sure! And yes, she will be loved!
*This songs always have reminded me of her. I think she was the one who first told me about this song.
Monday, 2 March 2009
Umbrella* - Marie Digby
It pays to be observant! :-)
*Her acoustic version of this song on YouTube propelled her into fame.
*Her acoustic version of this song on YouTube propelled her into fame.
Sunday, 1 March 2009
I just fall in love again* - The Carpenters
I've fallen in love! Again!
Check her out:-
*I used to love this song when i was really young!
Check her out:-
*I used to love this song when i was really young!
I hate this part* - Pussycat Dolls
It was going so well... until then.
How i loath thee, oh thou green-eyed monster!
*Their 2nd worldwide single from their 2nd studio album.
How i loath thee, oh thou green-eyed monster!
*Their 2nd worldwide single from their 2nd studio album.
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