I miss them all so much. I wish i was there with them, working together with them, enjoying and stressing at the same time. But i was not. I was over 10,000 km away - and it was also prolly a case of out of sight, out of mind.
I've been that far away from them - but i never felt this far away before.
This is one of the painful part of doing what i do. Students come, and they find their way into my heart - but not long after that, they leave. They all do. They all have to. They leave having each other - but leaving me alone.
Saying goodbye is hard - and i have to do this year after year after year after year...
It wasn't long ago that i was hanging out with these wonderful young ppl, spending time with them like i was one of them at times. How things have changed after less than a year.
I guess i should get used to this. But even after experiencing it on a yearly basis, it doesn't get any easier.
I wonder if that's the reason why i am not so close with my current students - maybe subconsciously, i'm not getting close to them only to go thru the pain of goodbye again.
I guess there are a lot of reasons - but i know that come September this year, my heart will not weigh so heavy as it has in the past few autumns.
As for those in the UK now, i shall try to just feel happy for them, for the wonderful time they are having - i do, no doubt! But i shall try not to feel sorry for myself - not to cry because it is over but to smile because it happened. And looking thru the pages of my memories, there are so many reasons to smile - and to be thankful for.
And as i look ahead, there are reasons to smile too cuz i know that whenever i get the chance to be with some of them again, it'd be just like how it was back then. =)
*One of her classic in her brilliant Tapestry. This song featured James Taylor on the guitar.
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